You're free

Few days ago.. my housemate asked me whether she should get a bird.. parrot specifically.. i said dont.. they are noisy.. i gave dozens of reason why she should not get any kind of bird..

Truth is i believe bird are meant to be free.. not as a pet.. not inside a cage locked up eternity.. helplessly flapping their wings trying to get out.. few years back my friend bought a canary.. white colored canary.. it was cute.. small and all white.. but i noticed the wings was partially cut off.. so was the tail.. and it was so dirty.. i could not hold my tears back then.. i showed it to my friend and he couldn't care less.. he bought the lil fella just for fun.. and the cage was so small.. water bowl was empty.. whole cage was dirty.. apparently the wings and tail was cut off by the pet shop so they cant fly away..

So he had it few weeks before Hari Raya.. every Raya the whole family will be gone for a week of so to their hometown.. so i decide to lend him a hand to take care of the lil fella.. and so i did.. i bought a bigger cage.. a lot bigger and some toys and good healthy food.. i planned to keep it until maybe the wings and tail could grow back and ultimately let it go.. after Raya my friend had ask me back for the canary.. but i said it died cause of infection.. of course i was lying.. my friend said ok.. that was it.. ok..
what? do they even have feelings?

After few months with me.. the tail grew slightly longer.. so was the wings.. but Putih could not make it.. yeah i named it Putih.. which means white in Malay.. Putih died before i could ever release it.. i cried.. im sorry Putih... i tried my best.. i guess the injury didn't heal up as i expected.. but i know you're much happier in heaven now..

So back to present.. i woke up this morning and went downstairs to wash my cloths.. there it was.. in a super small cage.. a budgie.. i was so furious.. so pissed at her.. she already own 3 rabbits.. which could have died long ago if i didn't help feed and clean them up.. small cage with no water bowl.. imagine 1 whole day without water.. argh.. what an asshole.. so without thinking twice.. i open the cage grab the fella and let it go.. fly my friend.. fly.. f**k my housemate.. if she get another 1 i'll be sure to do the same thing..

Am i that good?

Have you ever wonder?

What u were born to do? is there something that you are truly good at? i mean really good.. not like mediocre good.. not so so good.. have you?

Until now i cant quite figure what im actually built for.. im not good at sports.. i tried many thing.. venturing into many hobbies.. i like em.. but im not good at em.. say for example.. photography.. i love it.. downright to my hairy legs to my almost bald head i love photography..

But..

Im not good at it.. sure i can shoot decent stuff.. most of my nice shots were merely a lucky shot.. bleh.. i dont own awesome gears.. cant blame the gears can we? its all about the talent inside.. gifted?

yes gifted.. how i envy some people.. how gifted they are.. i like arts too.. i love studying them.. looking at the artwork itself.. mesmerizing.. how i wish i could draw like them.. im not great.. heck not even close to good.. but i try.. and i suck.. i hate it.. so many creative inputs but i cant seem to lay them nicely on a piece of paper..

have u ever wonder?

even when you are playing games.. you like the game so much.. but you are not the best.. not even top100 best.. you try to practice.. but still.. cant even come close to them pros out there.. yes maybe they are gifted.. its like their hands are meant to kill people with 1 shot.. headshot.. luck? hack? why would god want to give such talent to someone? I GIVE YOU THE POWER OF HEADSHOT IN COD4!! BEHOLD!!

Until now im still searching the real deal.. what im truly good at.. there has to be something that i totally pawn! at.. im tired being average.. deep thoughts.. it shall be my pursuit for happyness.. 

I am of all people.. truly thankful to god for what i am.. this has nothing to do with god.. so please dont judge me for what i have said.. syukur alhamdulillah for all god have given me.. there is nothing wrong trying to pursuit my destiny.. wherever that may be..

So it seem..

I have been out of action for more then a week.. im not that busy and all.. i had acute osmotic diarrhea which was really painful both internal and physically(my asshole).. i mixed my maggi mee with ketchup and soy sauce.. possibly the ketchup was the culprit.. or maybe the soy sauce? which led to uncontrollable bowel.. it was tiring and painful.. not forgetting lost of apatite.. tragically horribly week of sore asshole..

Oh yes..

yes im definitely coping these.. dont care where dont care how much.. its mine.. already missed out Kuwahara.. not gonna slip this one out..

Okay..

K.. been busy.. but i manage to slot some time last night to watch Inglourious Basterds.. man was it awesome.. another awesome movie directed by Quentin Tarantino.. a must watch movie.. since we dont have many awesome movie this year.. Inglourious Basterds is one of few good movie everyone should watch.. i had a huge expectations on this movie and it did not disappoint me.. not 1 bit..

Its not all about war, shooting and killing.. the script was amazing the cast was spot on.. Christopher Waltz was amazing.. he delivered such powerful act.. he practically stole the show.. surely deserve Cannes Film Festival Best Actor Award.. the opening scene was so intense i almost had heart attact.. in fact.. there was so many intense scene i felt like yelling the F word.. there is not 1 moment i felt bored.. more like ZOMG OMG OMG OMG!!! WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NEXT!!?? 

If you dont like Brad Pitt.. good.. he is not the limelight of this show.. but if you like or even hate Quentin Terantino.. watch this movie and judge him again.. i was blown away by this amazing show.. i could not say anymore but to force yer fat ass to watch this movie!! thank you Quentin Terantino for this superb show..

I rate 10/10

Busy busy busy.. not...

hiya fellas.. sorry i couldn't get my hands on my blog.. She just got back.. so ive been busy dating lol.. so maybe later tonight or tomorrow i update my blog.. yay! thnx for visiting yeh? be seeing ya!!

LOL

Dammit i left out Day 6 Penang.. lolol.. i went back on Day 7 not 6.. huhuhu.. but really nothing awesome that day.. oh wait.. yeah i went and watch District 9... super awesome movie!! awesome!!!!! other then that.. nothing.. but wth.. i'll just dump some shots yah? ehehe sorry guys..

clean comfy Rapid Penang.. oh yeah!

 emmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. went back to Prangin Mall to indulge this...

See saliva dripping..

 Suck it!!! -my multi purpose model She- huhuhu

After laksa we went to Gurney Plaza to catch District 9.. awesome movie!! again i say.. awesome!! must watch again.. then we had like 2-3 hours before movie starts.. went window shopping.. got bored.. end up eating again lol..

Went down to Drive.. walked around.. and i could not help myself noticing this rojak stall.. if you notice theres a huge speaker sitting on the chair.. they were playing techno songs.. seriously!! freaking loud techno!! it sure did attract everyone passes by.. best thing was.. they squeeze in ROJAK!! whenever it rhymes.. i was loling at them the whole time.. it was like.. ting ting ting ROJAK!! ting tong ting tong ROJAK!! ROJAK.. ROJAK ROJAK ROJAK!! really.. not joking.. you guys should really go there and see for yourself haha.. awesome dudes.. 

 

 the rojak was fine.. not so awesome..

But this dude sure is awesome! see manage to pose for me.. really.. this was his pose.. i was like "Boss ambil gambar mari!" then he said "Beli rojak saya kasi POSE".. haha..

Movie was around 2 hours?.. went back to Drive.. this time we grabbed rojak buah.. then dating lol by the beach.. at night not so smelly.. and i heard they did some mud ball throwing few weeks back? to fix the smell and all.. good..

Well thats it.. went back home.. rest then went out again for supper lol.. yeah i love eating.. i much rather waste money on food then anything else.. "jangan kedekut duit bila makan" thats what my mom used to said... holiday over... back to KL next day.. this time for sure lol..